Deep Thoughts Unplugged

I am not a deep thinker. But just wanted to title my blog Deep Thoughts. I am an open book here goes some of the pages...

Sunday, June 21, 2009

While My Guitar Gently weeps...

I am obviously sad my guitar is completely dusty and untouched for the past 6months. I mean I dint bother to touch my guitar even to clean it... It is literally dust covered. With a heavy heart I have offered my guitar to be sold for Rs.2000 to someone in office. I just wish the person wont buy the guitar from me. :(

I just came back from office. I volunteered to work on a Sunday... I know it was foolish of me to have done such a crazy thing. I saw a post in the bulletin board where someone was interested in a second hand guitar. As usual, my "impulse" neuron overtook my "thought process" neuron and forced me to make an offer for my untouched guitar. The destiny of my guitar will not be attained if I have it with me. I think the time has come to release it from my clutches...

I look at you all see the love there that's sleeping
While my guitar gently weeps
I look at the floor and I see it needs sweeping
Still my guitar gently weeps

I don't know why nobody told you
How to unfold your love
I don't know how someone controlled you
They bought and sold you

I look at the world and I notice it's turning
While my guitar gently weeps
With every mistake we must surely be learning
Still my guitar gently weeps

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Rehna Tu - World Without End

I was surprised to see my last blog to have dated 2008 June! I was expecting it to be Jan 2008. For quite sometime I decided to stay away from the internet and running away from "Socializing". I have had a wasted 6months time that it was absolute fun :)

Last friday I heard some good music in the 1st cubicle and pinged the good lady to share those songs. I dint even know it was Rahman sir's album until my itunes told me. I just listened to the 1st 2 songs - Arziyan and Bhor Bhaye and concluded the movie had only sufi and Hindustani. Period!

I got a pop up to shut down my pc only then did I realise it was time to leave and had 20minutes to catch my bus. I had 2 mails to be sent to my onsite stating why I spent the whole day in RnD and did not bother to finish the original worth while task. After sending the mails, I was left with 10minutes to copy the songs to my pen drive and catch the bus. Unfortunately I could not find my pen drive and had to decide if I should catch the bus, go home without the songs or stay back an hour more and listen to the remaining songs.

I really dint have any work back home except for reading a book with 1300 pages. I decided to stay back and listen to the remaining songs. Being a Friday evening, there were not many people in the wing. I put on my headphones to continue with the 3rd song - Delhi6. My earlier judgement of the album being very sufi was baffled with Delhi 6 title song. I sat with the task updating the quality centre. I realised i could multi task efficiently with music running through my ears. I could update more than I could without the music. Dil Gira Daftaan and Kala Bandhar moved on. Either I was engrossed with my updation or the songs dint stick in my mind as Delhi6 the first go. Then came masakali and it made me feel elated. My reflex pushed me to check the time. Fortunately it was around 5.45 reminding me I had another solid half an hour for my 6.20 Bus.

Then came my soul filling song - Rehna Tu. 1st time I listened to it "I was just butter in his hands"! 3 times I repeated Rehna Tu!!! Since then I have been listening to the song like n number of times and I stopped having the count. my ipod, my lappy itunes, my office itunes can give me the count 58. Itunes should be wrong as am very much sure I have listened to it atleast 150times in the last 1week. Back in my cubicle, I wanted to copy the songs or rather the song! I suddenly remembered I have a mobile which can be used for music listening purpose and as a mere storage device ;) I never used my mobile for anything apart from texting and calling people. I got the cable out of my cubicle mate's PMU and frantically copied the songs to my mobile. I was expecting it to throw an error for no disk space. Only then I saw the whole folder was 9Mb! The good lady had sent me a compressed version. The time was 6.10. I dint have much time and had to fast shut down the system and run towards my bus. I could not wait 30minutes to get back home to copy the songs and listen to Rehna Tu.

All evening I put the song in Repeat One mode and until it was 12am, the song was repeating with me reading through the huge book. I am still listening to Rehna Tu and typing this blog. I cant say I have no words about the song. It would be useless writing a whole blog without having any words for me on the song.
Everytime I listen to the song I would fantasize some scenario. First, I was thinking about my good friend and her hubby in the song. I dont know why I did that but they always seemed so much in love. Then I was reminded of the Alaipayuthey song "Nagida Nagida". Saturday passed, Sunday and the Monday passed with lot of sequences. Tuesday morning I was waiting for my cubicle mate to come and translate me the urudu song! She was in no mood to translate even a word. I did not leave her easily and offered her something which she could not refuse. (You will never get it out of me!) she translated word by word. After knowing it was indeed a romantic song and all those words running through my mind endlessly, I did not know what to imagine the song sequence to be. SIGH!

I was listening to the song and reading "the huge book" - World Without End. I had to make Caris and Merthin dance to Rehna Tu! Caris and Merthin are the characters from the medival fictious place called Kingsbridge! Merthin is a fine craftsman, Caris is a Wool trader. Caris is a revolutionary women from the year 1337. She wants to have a "live in" relationship with him and not have kids. According to her, marriage will make her a slave to the husband and the kids would only worsen her slavery. She likes Merthin and wants him to be with her but not marry her or have his kids. Maybe this is why men call women highly unreasonable.

So the song Rehna tu running, Merthin is pleading Caris to marry him. The lines go like this:
"Rehna Tu
Hai Jaisa Tu
Dheema Dheema jhonka
Ya phir junoon
Thoda sa resham
Tu humdam
Thoda sa khurdura
Kabhi daud jaye
Ya lad jaye
Ya khushboo se bhara"
She bluntly refuses to marry him but says she loves him and cant marry or fall in love with anyone else other than Merthin. Merthin still pressures her and sings:
"Tu zakham de agar
Marham bhi aakar tu lagaaye"
Caris tries to make Merthin understand her career is at stake if she marries him or have his kid. Merthin continues to sing:
"Zakham mein bhi mujhko pyaar aaye
Dariya o dariya
Doopne de mujhe dariya"
And then the musical goes on further when Merthin holds Caris's hands:
"Haath tham chalna hi
To dono ke daye haath sang kaise
Ek daaya hoga ek baaiya hoga
Tham le haath yeh thaam le
Chalna hai sang tham le"
And if you thought Caris to have molten with these lines and goes shy, you are wrong! She still has not married him yet. let alone say yes to his proposal. I have crossed 600 pages of the 1300 paged book and there is no such sign. I drafted the scenario when I was in page 200.

I finally made a good musical out of the book and Rehna Tu. I call it co-incidence!!!

Saturday, June 7, 2008

"God Fearing" factor

I missed out writing my blog last month yet again. Sometime back I wanted to write, but my laziness overpowered me to even not open my blog.I was going through couple of matrimonial profiles with my sister (for her) and the term "God Fearing" was predominant. It was appearing in almost all profiles. I saw matrimonial ads in the office Bulletin board, surprise I found the term there too. Apart from the terms "Fair", "Beautiful", "Professional Home maker" and "Tall" the phrase "God Fearing" bothered me to write a blog...

As far as I know God Fearing means: fearing god. Why would one be scared of god? Are we not supposed to love him? And later I got an explanation from one of my friends who recently got married for the term. According to her God Fearing means someone who fears god will never do wrong! Now this reminds me of the childhood saying or at least I was warned if I did some mistake, God will pierce my eyes with his fingers. "Umaachi kanna Kuthidum"! How funny... I thought the phrase was only for kids... People have taken it seriously to even put it in their profiles; 20years after they were told about god and fear...

Most of the matrimonial profiles are time pass to read through. I believe in god. I love him for sure and I never can Fear him!All said there are more terms and conditions in various profiles that sounded really ridiculous. Topping them was "God Fearing". God save the God fearing people ;)

P.S. I have revised the blog in order to remove the misconception about I going through Matrimonial Profiles for myself. I am 22 and Not ready to marry. For further reference do read through my blog about marriage and 22 years of age!!

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Sense and Sensitivity

Yesterday I was watching an episode of FRIENDS where Rachel and Ross hire a male nanny. The 3 women are happy to accept a man who is a nanny but the 3 men find it difficult to accept a male nanny. Joey and Ross portray their manliness by commenting about Sandy who is a man and a nanny "That's like a woman wanting to be a...” Ross justifies himself to be sensitive and the male nanny to be too sensitive.

The episode was very funny and I imagined how I would react to a "too sensitive" person. There are rules in life and one such prominent rule, I grew up learning “why men can’t cry” or “why men are not allowed to cry”. Always when a boy cries, he is pacified not to cry because crying makes him a girl and if he doesnt cry he is a man. The opposite of crying is laughing. Both men and women laugh. Why cant men and women cry too? Why is crying gifted to women folk alone? If a person cries the person is branded very sensitive. So in the episode Ross narrates how his father rescues him from becoming one of the very sensitive people like Sandy, the Manny (man nanny is Manny according to Chandler).

I am left here wondering will Rachel have the mind to go out with Sandy. All she could do was hire him as a nanny. If it was me I can sure go out with Ross but Sandy is too much test for my patience. I have come across so many Sandys and have deliberately avoided them.

After giving a serious thought on crying, now I know why men are not allowed to cry. If both men and women cry, then there is no one strong to console the cry baby! So if the woman cries, the man will be trained to be strong and console the woman. Why can’t it be the other way around? Men will cry and the women console the men? Well it is good to write this in a blog. As always some questions are better unanswered. Why are there rules different for men and women? Why the double standards?

Let alone the sense in the above argument running through my mind, I am unable to address the statement which Ross and Joey comment “That's like a woman wanting to be a...” The examples they give to complete the sentence sound hilarious but is sure offensive.

All said I have no idea what to conclude... Life still remains a question mark on LOS (Line of Sensitivity.)

Friday, February 29, 2008

A Release, A Dilemma and A Question Mark - Part IV (VBS - Volunteer Bench Sceme)

So in the series of my "Bench" marks, here I am in bench again from monday :) I know how I enjoyed my bench life in mysore but I would sure want to see how it is in chennai. So I again struggled for my release with my same old "health issues" ;) I am unwell of the shift. 2-11 might suit others but I am undergoing a lot of stress and strain. I prefer working 8-11 instead :D My dilemma killed me as couple of my colleagues were confusing me about my reputation and visibility in this project. My impulsiveness and dilemma pushed me to a planned release. I got a release after a similar struggle. Now the question mark is what is my next project? And I am back on track this time with my CAT only that I am adding GMAT to it now... I am denined of my rightful promotion because of "Business Requirements" and "Recession". All this clubbing together is again forcing me to really really try hard for my MBA plans...
My guitar is rusted... My french class is still a question mark :(
I am just waiting to move into the city where I can get back on track with both guitar and french!

I can easily be satisfied and feel content. I hate complaining and I always compare myself with someone who has no food for the next meal. I am better off than half the world's population and find myself stupid to crib on trivial problems. No promotion, No sleep, No proper health! All these are teeny tiny problems compared to what most of them around me are undergoing. I am happy not complaining :)